This picture shows it all. Just like how much i do not wish to face the fact that we can't be together. 伤心过了，哭过了，心也酸。但却改变不了什么. 做不了情人，我们也还会联系的.

HMMMMMMMM.

What more can i say? I already did what you guys want me to.

I need time, a whole lot of time.

Please understand that it's not easy to love one person and giving up that person so quickly.

I might find that you guys are ridiculous with all the things you are doing right now.

I know it's all for my own good.

But where's the ONE chance for everyone?

Everyone deserve a second chance right?

Not giving him a chance to prove that he has changed to a better person, isn't it unfair?

I'm not trying to protect him because i like/love him but, yah everyone deserve a second chance.

I always thought so. I always thought that you guys are open minded. I know that you guys are worried, and you guys cried too.

So am i, so do i?

Saying that, putting myself in other people's position and think why they are doing this.

Then maybe put yourself in my position and think if you guys are doing this, how will i feel?

I don't know if i'm saying all THESE right, but it's just what on my mind.

Telling him that we can and we will face it together, then ended up i'm the one to leave first, being forced to. I might say that we're no longer together, but my heart doesnt says so.

GOODBYE! 心好酸.

happy with my life now. :)

( Batam trip, 12 - 13 december 2011.)

Shall only upload this photo which i randomly choose, haha. Trip to batam was awesome i swear. The seaview from our cottage especially. Wanna thanks daddy for that! Thanks for paying so much to allow us to enjoy more and better, love you daddy! ^^ Basically, went shopping all day long, make me feel so tired, but it's really enjoyable though. Didn't really spent a lot for shopping, i prefer singapore's. HAHA k no offence. The spa was great too. Massage made my whole body aches even more, hahaha. I don't know what to update about batam trip though, ><. Ok it's fun and awesome. -.-

Today's family day. Went out with family members to boonlay raja restaurant, hen hao chi! Have been eating A LOT these few days. I can say it's A LOT. So tempting :( Okay, currently i'm waiting for mindy's reply to see if she can accompany me to kbox and have singing session a not! Goodbye :)

THANKS GOD IT'S FRIDAY? UH HUH, BUT I'M ON MC AGAIN. Which means i needa rest at home and not go to work. Oh mama, what's wrong with my health this month. Really afraid that supervisor / boss might fire me anytime because this is the second times i'm on Mc this WEEK. For goodness sake, i'm only a part timer and i'm on Mc twice. This is bad.... :(

Yesterday was SUPER HORRIBLE i swear. After knocking off from work, went back home straight away and i slept for few hours. Feeling cold and hot at the same time, i was having a high fever i know. But i thought i would feel better after waking up from my nap. But it got worst i guess. Swollened eye, fever, cold. Feeling very terrible that i feel like crying. That's me, i will cry alone whenever i'm sick, haha like stupig. :(

At night, asked mummy to give me fever medicine. She gave me a chinese medicine which is known as "zhong yao" ? Ah whatever it is, i'm allergic to it. No one knows that, i didn't know too. Right after i took it, both my eyes swollened like mad. I can't even open my right eye, my left eye was half opened ONLY. It feels like i'm gonna turn blind SOON. Like you can't see anything, and you can only depend on your half opened left eye to see. Can't help but to cry, very badly. Went to the doctor with a pair of sunglasses, holding on to dajie's hand. I'm like a blind woman walking along the street. Everyone's looking, that feeling was bad and i feel like shouting at them and give them a tight slap each. But all in my mind was, i needa go to the doc asap.

Had an injection. Been so long ever since i had an injection. The last time was when i'm at primary six? HAHA. Okay so Mc today, i'm gonna rot. Bye! ^^

Work went off smoothly yesterday. Had fun chatting with workers there, super funny and entertaining i swear! Although i've got a new nickname given by one of the workers there, crispy. -.- HAHAHA it was really funny though. He said: hi crispy, i'm original. LOL TTM. I guess it's alright because a work without jokes can be very boring too. So i had fun yesterday! :) That partner of mine is also another funny guy, kept on talking and talking non-stop. Sieh talkative one lo! But it's okay, at least the things he said really did entertained me at times, hahaha.

Did not go to work today because of my right eye. Went to the doc this morning, eyelid infection. It's very painful! :( But its okay, since i've consulted the doc and he gave me some cream to apply on it. That doc damn handsome, don't dare to look into his eye. HAHAHA WTF. Had a not so awesome nap just now as messages and phone calls kept on coming in when i'm sleeping. Booo, but thanks for all the concern! Much appreciated okay, :)

Back to work tomorrow and i'm looking forward! I'm rotting today, no idea on what to do. Shall go watch drama already, goodbye!

First day of work was alright, except that i'm late because i can't find the place as it was really a "jungle maze". Had a hard time finding it. As usual, wanna thanks dajie for accompanying me. I swear i would panic like mad if i were alone, really!! Supervisor treat me kinda well, i guess it's because it's my first day of work there. Haha whatever. Everything went off smoothly, the workers there are kinda friendly too.

Work ended @ 3pm today, it was early! Cause not much stock today and we completed our task given. Anyway, wanna thanks that two girl for approaching me and talk to me, first. Although they are younger, but they work longer than me, haha. So yeah, everything went fine, but i hate the part when i'm going home alone. Walked the wrong way, took the wrong bus, alighted at the wrong stop. This is definitely not awesome. It sounds terrible to me. That's so sad. :(

I don't know what to update anymore, stay tune for the next post? Bye :/

Here to update again! Seems like i update quite often this few days, haha it's a good thing though! Okay so, my agent ringed me up today and offered me a job! Gonna start work tomorrow, i don't know if it's a good thing or not. It's actually very rush for me, but yah i don't wanna stay at home and drama all the way too, it's way too boring!

Did so many things today; made myself a dbs bank card today, hehe. Went jurong east to pass my time sheet to agent, which is like so finally because i've been lazying around the house and not going out. Rebonded my hair again, it feels so normal to me already. I told myself not to rebond my hair after this time round, guess it's a good thing too. ^^

Off to watch snsd's dream team at kns world! BYEBYE! I LOVE YONGSEO! HEHE.

HI BABY(S)! Work came to an end on monday. It was so sudden. Mixed feelings at that point of time when the leader inform us that we only need to work till that day. Reason being we've completed most of the stocks there, and we've got nothing to do anymore. I went awwwww..... all the way with my friends, seriously. That day was the day when we chatted with the workers there all day long. Of course we did our work while packing all the stocks. It was a very sad and happy day indeed. :(

I've been slacking ever since monday, till now... I don't wanna stay at home and watch drama all day long. Because other than drama, i'll think a lot of stuffs. Regarding ppl's tweet at twitter. I don't like bring paranoid, REALLY. Like duh, who likes it ? But i can't stop being paranoid. If i'm working, i wouldn't have the time to think so much about all these silly stuffs. On a side note, i realized that when i'm working, i tend to think a lot about lg. HAHAHA LIKE SERIOUSLY OK! Then i will smile to myself like retarded. But that makes me happy, hehehe. ^^

Okay so monday was the last day of work! Took quite a number of pictures with friends there. Er, not a lot actually, maybe THREE? hahahahahaha. Will upload it here later! Okay lah, wanna watch my running man with yonghwa inside already! OH MAN. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. OK BYE!

HI EVERYONE!

Been so long since i posted. Os ended, currently working. Love my job, although they only need us for ten days. Three more days to go and i'll be jobless already, shall go for job hunting after my current job! First day of work was kind of awkward because it's first day? I bet everyone's first day will be awkward too. Working without talking can be so boring and good as well. Boring because i've got no one to talk to, good because i tend to do things faster and better without talking. This is so lame, hahahaha but it's true okay. SO LOL. HAHAHA.

Oh yah, dajie brought me to work place for first day, if not i will definitely lost my way there, and agent kelly will be calling me and ask me where am i and i will panic like a mad k9! Ok i'm a person who doesn't know how to express myself. But all i want to say is, thanks dajie for bringing me there and you still have to wake up so early and squeeze in the mrt and bus to work place with me. I still remember i overshot and you called me and tell me about that. I admit i was actually feeling very scared when i walked into the building myself, VERY. But i told myself that i've to do it MYSELF, ALONE. Because every now and then, i've to be an independent girl. Be responsible for everything i do. Told myself that everything will be okay, there's nothing to worry about. :)

Second day, third day, fourth day, fifth day? Went to work alone, kind of get used to it already. I enjoy working there because as time goes by, i get to know more friends and the workers there. They look fierce and unfriendly initially, but afterall, they are friendly and good, really... And they always talked about their life, how much they've gone through. Majority are from malaysia and china, they are at disadvantage. Thats's very sad. But sigh, no choice, jy!! Temp workers will only work till next wednesday, i'll miss you all okay. :$

Ah, i'm writing composition again~ Super lazy to post pictures. Shall do it next time! Alright shall watch yongseo now, bye!