Hi blog. I'm here to update you because i'm feeling v down and uneasy the whole day. I've got no idea why. Perhaps one of the reason is because i'm having my period, that's why i am down. The pain is really torturing this month. I know i'm not the only one who are going through this. I know all the woman in the world are having this, whatever. But i chose to type it out, they don't. That's their problem.

I feel like crying. Because i feel that i'm not putting in effort in my studies this year. This year is the most important year of all, but i'm still not prepared yet. Perhaps like what i told my friends, i guess i chose the wrong path. I'm not capable, i don't know.. Yah whatever, the billionare says everyone is capable, that really motivates me. But now...... I feel so lose out whenever i'm with my friends, this is the fact, i always feel this way. Because i feel that they are better than me in many many way, that's the fact too. I don't know what to do.. i just wanna cry, can i ? :'(

I feel like crying. Because i hate it when my friends say that they're not able to do it, but when they got back their results, it's the other way round, they did it. I don't know if they are acting that they can't do it or not. But i really dislike it.. I'm always wondering why must they do that. Why must they make me feel that at least i have a companion that we will not do well together. To say the truth, i always feel much safer when they say that they are not able to do it, because i also feel that i can't do well. But why.. Can you guys don't be like this.....? :(

I feel like crying. Because i feel that my attitude towards my friends and family members are different. There's a lot to be compared, too much to be said. I just hope that my attitude towards my parents will be better, i'm still trying hard, sorry mummy and daddy and sister(s).. :(

I feel like crying. Because i'm afraid to let my family members to know about my Mye results. I did really badly this time, despite the hours of revisions in the library. Why... The thought of giving up, yes. The thought of commiting suicide, yes, but it's gone. I always comment about other people who commited suicide, how silly they are, and why must they do that, their family members will get upset.. Same goes to myself, i don't want my family members to get upset over me. Ok stop that chrismeen.. You can't do anything to it, just live happily..

There's a lot to say, but i don't know who to trust. No one can be trusted, no one..