Okay! Since there's no one at home now, and i'm still slacking before i start on some of my work, i shall blog! Uh well, there's nothing for me to update about my life though. Only some rantings, which is what i am doing everytime i post. And perhaps some unhappiness, sadness, whatever-ness you can describe me. HAHA ~

Uh so, did not do well for prelim. I've the guts to admit that this is what i deserve because i didn't really put in my effort to study, was too tired. Is that an excuse? Yes it is, because everyone faces the same stress as me, if they can do it, why can't i ? I've been questioning myself, i've been self reflecting. Yesterday i lie on my bed and did nothing for about an hour? Think about a lot of stuffs, really. Thinking about what can i actually do for myself this ONE MONTH for goodness sake, ONE MONTH BEFORE Os. This is really scary!!!

Went for a motivational talk by mrs eswaran just now. It went off smoothly, it was great. But afterall, it depends on myself whether i want to do well, how much do i want to do well? Am i just gonna pass my Os? Or maybe setting a higher aggregate and aim for it? Frankly speaking, i'm tired of setting an aim for myself and not getting that aim, or even not even close to that aim i gave to myself. :(

Okay that's all for today, it's gonna rain real soon and i'm off to shut all the windows! Ciaos. ;)